The North Star Project, 2013-2014 Report Number Thirty-Eight, Looking back on China, by Erin Monroe
It’s my winter break now, and I have a month off from school. An entire semester has passed since I was studying abroad in China, and lately, as the year came to a close and another one began, I’ve feeling particularly reminiscent. I look back on those memories fondly, and there is so much that I miss about China that I could never have predicted.
Although I’ve been studying in the U.S. this past semester, China and Chinese continues to remain a huge part of my life. Out of the four classes I took in the fall, three of them were in the Chinese department. I’m involved in various organizations that revolve around China and I work and spend time with Chinese students and other international students daily. In fact, my parents, who keep an eye on my Facebook page, asked “Do you have any American friends? You realize that almost everyone in your Facebook photos is Chinese except you, right?” In sum, China and all things related has become such a huge part of my life that at this point, I can’t imagine extricating that piece of me from the rest of my life. I’ve been on vacation, at home with my family, for three weeks now. I realized today that this is the longest I haven’t spoken Chinese in a year (since last winter break) and I miss it. China has become strangely, but warmly, familiar to me. It’s not my culture, and as I was born and raised in northern Minnesota, it’s not part of my background, history, or environment. Still, when my dad asked a question this morning, the first thing I thought to respond with was ??? (shenme=what) when I didn’t hear what he said.
At this point, and perhaps it has to do with the age I’m at, but wanderlust has clouded my aspirations. Or perhaps, it clarifies them. My experience in China helped shape and refine my ideas of what I want to do in my future after graduation. I’m happy with where I’m at, in terms of place and opportunities available, but I was exposed to a world so different from my own that now that I’ve experienced a taste of this new culture, I’m itching to go back. Someday, I’ll return to China.
Missing the little things
In China, with the fellow Americans in my study abroad program, we would often discuss what we missed about home when we felt homesick. It comforted us to know that we weren’t alone, to group together and know that we were all thinking and feeling the same feelings of missing home. Homesickness is natural, it’s expected. I awaited the reverse culture shock upon my arrival home, which I had been heavily warned about, but it never came. I adjusted back to living in the U.S. like I had never left to live across the world for three months.
Over the next few months, back in Madison, little things about China crept up into my mind. Why aren’t there any red beans in desserts here? Why doesn’t the McDonald’s in the U.S. have taro pies like they do in China? Why are taxis so expensive and wouldn’t it be nice if we had some sort of subway system in place? Somehow, there were some things that I preferred in China over America—foods that aren’t common here, methods of transportation, aspects of my daily life in Tianjin. I have class with a lot of the same people I studied abroad with, and in the same way that we talked about the U.S. when we were in China, we talked about China now. As it turns out, many others were feeling the same way. We miss China.
Sometimes it’s the food and the substantial measurable things that I miss, while other times it was the simplicity of my stay in Tianjin. I could go into a restaurant that only served dumplings and the only decision I had to make was between vegetable or meat dumplings. I could hop on the subway and go wherever I wanted in the city of over 12 million people for the equivalent of 16 cents. It’s the small things that you can almost pass by without noticing—those are the things that come floating back into my mind months later. They didn’t seem to matter as much when I was there, but now, without sounding unbearably cliché, those are the things that I miss most of all.
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